I am laughing at myself. And I invite one and all to do so! I have always been able to laugh at myself, my stupidity and find it quite okay if people also find what I do funny, stupid or whatever is the appropriate adjective to use here (i cant think of any) and laugh along with me. maybe I wouldn't be so comfortable if people laugh 'at' me...Hmm..eeeehh thats a scary thought! But I know thats not gonna happen because I think I pretty much have control over that.
Now, What I dont have control over will take up one full page and no I don't want to write about that.
My Blog was named 'Memory's Eye' as I was writing about things that have happened in the past. Every moment becomes the past the very next moment...so as I am writing this in the present it keeps becoming the past so well even if I write about anything in the present..as I am doing now...just wrting whatever comes to my mind im keeping true to my blogs name and purpose!! Yay....!! Talk about having control by default...Sounds great...and confusing I guess..!
Today, has been, well transitional! I am suddenly realizing that I have taken my life and relationships a wee bit more seriously than I should've. I know this because I am not liking this!!I am recalling me when I was younger. All that comes to mind is 'I was carefree'. I had no attachments. And I was so amazing back then!! I want that back! I see that what i wrote about too has changed so much. What am I writing about today?? Im not writing....im just venting my feelings which by the way is a lot...I think I feel too much these days!!
So, thats it...thats all...I can take control of this. I am just letting myself go (umm, i just like the sound of it!)...adding more sense to that-I will be what i like being. It's just me now. Wait, not in the selfish way! It is in fact for the people in my life, who whether they know it or not are so damn special and I can't help that. For those people who will be happy if I become a little laid back and not hyperventilate about things. I can just help myself! Can't force anyone else to change or not be affected by my varying moods and words.....
Thats why I am laughing, because thats what makes me happy and carefree for starters!
Truly,
A Wanderer ( who went 'off track' for a bit!)
